I Am Lynn Chong

It was one of my best mission trips! Will try to update but knowing how busy we are gonna get, I think it will be faster hearing it from me first hand!:) I miss Cambodia. But nontheless, it is great to be home:) My first meal back home was homecooked food (at aunty's insistence) and familiar caramel frappuccino and carrot cake..:)

This holiday is as busy if not more so than all the previous year-end holidays. Nevertheless, I am trying to keep the spirit high and the attitude good:) And in between the busyness(usually late at night), I tried to read the new books we have recently gotten. I guess there's no way I can finish them but making the trip to the bookstore and lugging the books back (though technically, i wasn't the one lugging)make me happy for weeks:)(ok, that is if we try not to think abt the 3digit damage on our wallets) Once I'm done, it's up for loan if you guys are keen:) But you could tell I'm skew towards certain genre. So no prize for guessing which one was chosen by Caesar:)

Finally! I ended my last lesson for the year! Well, meetings and full day workshops are still in line (and 2piles of unmark work still! gasp!) but at least time for a breather! So goodbye kids and hello books! :) I started on The Road of Lost Innocence . You know how I am enthralled by any stories along the line of marginalized women. Middle Eastern, South Asia woman, women prostitution… Moreover, I'm going Cambodia. And someday, maybe, just maybe, I may get further than that...:)

We were so close to getting there... I can't help but wish for the one year to be up even though it is for a greater cause. But in times like these, I just wish you guys were here.

Last night when I came out from the shower around 2335, I thought I heard footsteps of leather shoes. And then I saw a very tired body fully clad in business attire. And there, that sneaky thing stood outside the doorstep with ( Ah yes…How could I not recognize that figure:) ) 1. A box on his left hand (equipments for my cca that I got him to collect which he was supposed to pass to me this morning. But he knows meeting in the morning is a mad rush and unsettling for me) 2. A plastic bag on his right hand (containing $3 char kway teow. Char Kway Teow cause I’ve been craving for it. $3 cause I have not had lunch or dinner) :) My ears have not yet drunk a hundred words of thy tongue's uttering, yet I know the sound, art thou romeo, and a montague?

O, where is Romeo? Saw you him to-day? :(

Happy Birthday to An Awesome Leader and Friend... :)

SWP told me daddy will be preparing steamboat for the mission trippers. Oh how i wish i was there. It's been one month. This one month I had too much: microwavable food (think white sausage, taiwanese sausage, waffles..) instant noodles bread Kit Kat and silence. I practically don't talk after 530pm each day. Well, except for tue and sat. Maybe I should just fly to China this nov, despite the various objections?:)

These days I see Caesar thrice a week. Ya tue, thu and sun. That is life group, leaders meeting and discipleship. I think maybe chao fan sees him more than me. haha!

My mini version of steamboat:) It taste better than it looks, really:)

X: How can you be in love and yet loves God more than the person? Me: Easy, Just find someone who loves God more than you...:)

He hath made every thing beautiful in His time Thankfulness beyond words ....:)

Postponed two months. Nevertheless still wonderful:) For your love for God, For your love for People, For your love for me:) It has been a most wonderful journey...:) Happy 6th:)

Daddy and mummy called yesterday:) Daddy told me how when he was asked to share about himself and his testimony on stage, he just cried uncontrollably when he mentioned us cause he misses us too much. 2000 miles away, I was trying real hard not to cry. You know the strange thing is, in one year's time, i'll be more ready to get married having run the household for a year. But I don't feel like getting married anymore because I can't bear to part with my parents. But I guess, soon, soon we will be able to adapt better to the separation.

0600: Had a left over cupcake from teachers'day and a half a cup of milk. (i don't drink milk but it is more convenient) 0640: Cousin message to say to go to her if we need help. 1300: Aunty Lily called to see how's things and how I settle my breakfast. 1530: I made myself a cup of tea and I felt like crying. This is the first time in my 20 weeks in school that I made myself a cup of tea. The reason is very simple. I usually have my tea served in the morning so there is no need for another cup in school. Because I felt so miserable, I allowed myself 4 long packets of sugar.

Ah Ni, here you go! :)

So I did really catch the Winnie’s bug and got myself a 38.8 degree Celsius temperature. I’m ok now. Ok enough to cook my own lunch. I guess in time to come, I have to take care of myself when I’m sick anyway :( All right. I’m whining again. I will survive. There’s fervour, there’s the clique and there are already people who genuinely offered dinner. So I’ll be fine. In the meantime, I shall stick to my bland and non appetizing lunch.

The lack of activities here signifies full of activities is another area of my life. Unfortunately, nothing juicy-work. There’s up and downs and of course down times are always more salient and difficult to get over. Coupled with the major happening in our household that is happening faster than desired, these days I seem to be highly vulnerable and touchy. I am fearing the reoccurrence of depression of sort that I am prone to since Citi days but I tried very hard to fight on because I believe it is not from God. I would like to dismiss this entry as post Monday blues. Just ranting.

It's a strange strange feeling to buy one way ticket...

So we had all these commotions previously on the papers about workload and low life teachers. Well, I wouldn't say they are wrong. By the end of the school week, which is yesterday, I was so exhausted that I felt that I could not continue with work anymore. And since it so happened that there was no meeting and the internet was down. I quickly took the liberty to lug home all my stuff and took a cab home at 4pm! (yippee!) And so at 5, I really had to take a nap so that I could wake up and work later before catching a 11pm show with Caesar. (1st date for the week. eh or was it 2 weeks?...) But guess what? At 10plus when Caesar appeared at the doorsteps, I was still in bed:( and there goes the movie:( A supper (dinner for both of us actually as he had tuition and reach home only at 9) did save the day, but we were both quite tired still. ha! When will we ever get our work-life balance huh?

Work has been so busy that I barely have time to set up my work desk. I finally manage to do up a tiny section of my desk. The rest of the stuff are still in boxes.. That's not the worse, the worse is that there's zero reception at my seat. And I mean zero:( Oh well, maybe come sep holiday, I'll do up my desk:) as for the reception, when you can't get me, you know why.

And some should have stayed home.

Merely thinking about the match makes me nervous... Afterall we witnessed Germany and we sent Brazil home. Come on Argentina!

While sending me to work this morning, Caesar suddenly turned to me and said: " eh, 4 bankrupts are returning back to reality today!" Haha! Welcome home! :)

I’ll be returning to work tomorrow. Frankly, it is kinda nerve-wrecking. No more excuses because I am now fully trained! But if there is anything that I have learnt and that which God has been speaking this holiday is that I need to be ready and brace myself for what is to come. I need to be there, because how else can I influence? And I need to be there because God meant for me to succeed! :) So, Bring It On! :)

See ya, world! On sat:)

J: Eh! Why the little boy wanna steal the little girl's sweets?

I am just so amazed at the awesome stuff God is doing at Radical Conference!:) I am so proud of the Fervour Youth especially and I eagerly awaits the many lives that they can impact as they grow in God:)

I only wonder if it was meant for my eyes.

Sometimes, some women just elude me..

Thank God, I had a super long weekend! So on thu morning, two nutcase went to the evil place early in the morning! How early you ask? Early enough to run into Clare who's on her way to work. (even though she was actually running late!) And of course when you put yourself in such evil place, how could you not fall into temptation? The day ended with delicious, sinful supper at Chomp Chomp. I was too engrossed with eating to take picture except for the super big cup of sugar cane. So we chat and chat until we got chased out. And today was spent playing wii, eating chips and ice cream and POP with Fervour:) And of course, now that I'm home, I gonna make full use of the last few hours to do what I love most :) Treasuring the last few moment of the long weekend...:) Good night world, hope your day was as lovely:)

See! There's someone who appreciates my sharp tongue!:)

I mean Congrats!:) This is to our James Chia, whom by the time he saw this blog, he would have finished all the exams for his life thus far!:) I am proud of you that you moved on from whatever happened at JJ and finishing your tertiary education even though with some challenges. I know you are not looking forward to the corporate world but know that God is faithful always and you are called to be extraordinary. Congratulations, I am proud of you:) p/s erm James, the mickey is not any normal mickey, he's throwing a mortar board, in case you din notice.

Even after clearing 2 big bags of clothes, it's still impossibe to fit all the clothes into the wardrobe. But strangely, we are always running out of clothes to wear.

Lesson #1 - Get The Man Into The Kitchen 1. Get all the equipments ready 2. Bring (or coax, force, threaten)the man in 3. Close Supervision Tip: To ensure success, make sure you never let him out of your sight and do Quality Check 4. Make sure he does the washing too 5. And there you have it, nice chunky banana cake and a potential husband:)

This is unbelievable! Stir Fried Red and Yellow Bell Pepper are super yummy! Either that or I'm getting old, I actually like vege! Then again, key words are : Stir Fried - so we still need to pick those on pizza out Red and Yellow - i.e no Green

J:Dear, how to pronounce that word on that building over there? L(with a very smart look): Huh? xxxxxx lah! You dunnoe meh? J(in his calm and gentle tone): There was a rat that went passed:) aww...:)

As of today, Caesar has finally completed his education (non-officially) :) God is good:)

So I finished my drink and I went to the rubbish bin right outside the staff room to throw the cup away. A Sec 3 Student passed by: Hey! Miss Chong! What are you doing at the dustbin?!! Me: Erm….. Throw Rubbish? Maybe he thought I got so discourage of teaching them that I wanted to throw myself into the dustbin? :)

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I just need to sit myself in front of the tv and dinner will be served shortly:) And in the plate will only be dishes that I would eat, stuff like bittergourd remains at the dining table, for the rest of the clan...:)

I love you to bits and I feel totally helpless. I know its destruction yet I am seeing you go towards it and there is nothing that I can do. Sometimes, I thought to myself, if I give up on my own, you would give up on yours, Then I will consider. I don't love you any less because of what you have done. But it pains my heart my dear.

Finally! After 10 days! I seriously can't cope with work, cleaning, washing, breakfast and other details like ensuring the door is close at night and having water in the flask. I am so not looking forward to them going away for 365 days. It's strange to be "abandoned" by your parents rather than the other way round. More than just the housework, i guess i miss their presence. It's crowded when everyone's home but it's lonely when it's quiet. My parents fuss over us a lot. Mummy gets alarm over a mosquito bite on my leg and daddy insisting that I get that blouse because he thinks that it will look nice on me. Or how mummy still checks on us to see if we are asleep every night and the way daddy sends me at the door each day. Bidding goodbye is going to be difficult. And even though I don't share my problems with them, their presence has a soothing effect on me. I realise when they are not around, I feel more gloomy and depressed, and gets emotional o...

Dear Lynn, I am pleased to inform you that your posting to XXXX Sec has been confirmed. Please see the PED posting notification below and note that no hard copy letter will be issued. We look forward to your service and contributions in the school and hope you will have a fulfilling teaching experience. Thank you. VP, HODs, AMs, STs: Pl note and follow up accordingly. Thanks.  Regards, XXXXX Principal, XXXX Secondary School • Dear Principal, I wish to confirm that the following trainees who are due to graduate in June will remain in your school upon completion of their course at NIE with effect from 12 June 2010. They will report on 14 June 2010 as 12 and 13 June is a Saturday and Sunday respectively. S/N Name of Trainees CS1/CS2 1 Miss Chong Ning Shuang Lynn Social Studies/ English Language Attached are the posting notifications for the trainees. I would appreciate it if you could forward a copy of the notification to the trainees as no hard-copy of the notificatio...

So I am done with both my observations by my NIE supervisor! I am so thankful to God that it went well! If only the school teachers observing me are as impressed :) In any case, thank God! Thank God! :) I am very thankful that some of the kids really went all the way out to help ensure that my lesson went well. But at the same time, it really breaks my heart that some of these NA kids try so hard to impress me, to have me like them or simply to get a word of praise. Today my heart really broke when the chatty girl kept trying to get others to keep quiet because my supervisor is at the back and the rebellious boy who went to the table, pack and neatly tie up all my laptop cables and wires at the end of the lesson without being asked to. My heart breaks because they wanted so much to be loved and cared for. My heart breaks because I already like them without them having to do all these. I guess that must be the same for God. He saw us hurting and crying and He wanted so much to love us ...

You two got any cravings?:)