friends

friends...

one day if i lie helpless on the hospital bed, who would be there everyday?

i have a list of names which i know i would be there for them but somehow i feel this feeling may not be mutual..

how come so many times we fail one another. somehow no one was to blame. we are all selfish people who most of the times do not have the strength to be there physically as much as we want too. our loving capacity is so so little. going out is a greater agenda than visiting a sick patient. i am guilty too.

however, for the list in my heart, i know i would be there. i am a lazy person. i would not always be there for the fun but for u few, i know i would be there when it's needed.

yet i wish, you guys would do that for everyone in the group. i realise how shallow our friendships is. i always know one day i would lose you all when girlfriends enter into the picture. yet the day appear nearer than predicted and there's even isn't any girlfriends to speak of.

puzzled, what is our friendship build on? a centre figure? lonely ppl? a need to socialise?

i dunnoe and i always thought talking in the above manner is for the 15 years old.

i have so many thoughts, and i'm thinking much faster than i could type which explain the lack of theme.i believe that people cannot fully care. i am not hurt. i just hate to come to terms with the cruel fact.

to me, we will never learn to really love yet God want us to. His love is perfect. it's true. we need His love to love even the lovables.

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