182 more days:)

The most daunting part about the wedding ? Has got to be the money .

It's been 5months since I bought a new piece of clothing and we rarely go for fanciful meals these days.

Yesterday as I was walking alone at ion and stopping myself from buying things, I thought to myself miserably: why am I in such a miserable state?! Where did all my money go?

And the good voice inside me reminded me that: Hello, the money went to that hotel, that photography and THAT DRESS!

And so I actually feel a little guilty for my few minutes worth of pity party. Nobody puts me in such a miserable state besides my own vanity so I shouldn't complain , especially if the man is not.

Everything nice about the wedding seems to be for my sake. He doesn't seems to need anything. Yes, we should give your parents this, it's ok, we should get that dress and no , I don't need a tuxedo just the suit will do.

Hence while I can't wait to revert back to my original lifestyle ( if I am not retiring that is) , I am enjoying every bit of the engagement.

I love this phase when you are seriously planning for a future and working towards it. When you do things that you can only do so once in a life time . Think buying wedding magazines, visiting bridal, planning for honeymoon. When all your love ones get excited and busy together with you:)

So all in all, i am a very happy bride-to-be :)

When I am not thinking about the money and fitting in that dress:)



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